Dark Place

Yeah

Depression anxiety got ahold of me

'Cause people say they want the older me

Well I'm thirty this the oldest me

Behold it's me the piece of s**t that's not good enough

Not black enough not hood enough

Not rich enough not poor enough

My heart has poured enough

I been beaten and battered my confidence shattered

Been broken and tattered

I'm constantly second guessin' if my profession is worth it on my mental state

Writin' this from a dark place with humility and grace

Peace love and positivity was my nativity

But now when socials are in my vicinity

I'm not runnin' from the internet

My god I was at his birth I've been a vet

Goin' berserk like Peter down at InterTech yo ayy

It's deeper than the surface I'm searchin' for purpose

I'm tired of searchin' for logic and Googlin' purposes to read that I'm worthless

I remember makin' music alone just a pen and a microphone

But nowadays it's hard to get in the zone

Writin' rhymes was easy before the fame

But now I'm constantly overthinkin' every line it's a shame

Rap used to fill me with joy now it's nothin' but pain

I'm stuck in the game tryna get back from where I came

I write this letter for the person who's listening

Fed up and tired of people dismissin' 'em I'm with you

I been through what you been though

No amount of money can take away the feelin' of insecurity

Only though maturity can we overcome

Feel like I've been overrun feel like it's over I'm done

Whoever told you success gon' make you happy

You been lied to

All of my dreams came true but I bleed and cry too

Never been perfect I failed everytime I tried to

Feelin' hated and underappreciated

Everytime I look in the mirror I wonderWhy you

S**t I'd love to end this on some positive s**t

Hit you with punchlines instead of some derogative s**t

But it's okay to be sad sometimes and tired of s**t I guess

And people sayWell you're just out for money

I sayThat's none of your business

You see a lot of people don't feel happy

Unless they have another thing beyond money which is called status

And status to a very large extent in our economy consists in

In having this thing that thing the other thing and having a swimming pool

A uh Ferrari uh some kind of clothes and uh some kind of house

And so on and so on and so on

And we think uh we need all that

Because we haven't asked ourselves whether that was what we really wanted

They all think they gotta have this they gotta have that

And uh they don't really want it

If they sat back and considered

Do I need all that is this trip really necessary

They would come to the conclusion it wasn't

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