Disconnected

I feel disconnected, so far away

My minds running, twisting

It feels so outta place

I've been living off this bottle

My life feels full throttle

So disconnected

I feel so outta place

Im gone

cy, Out of place, feel like outer space

Driftin off, now I'm out a ways

Tryna navigate around my mind

But I'm lost inside it ‘cuz the ** a maze

Drown my thoughts but they won't erase

cnd I every time I do it yeah my soul degrades

Deep down yeah I really know

I'm just runnin from some ** I can't escape

cll this pain from my memories

cll the scars hidden underneath

cll my dead brothers that I see

When I close my eyes and when I go to sleep

Can't keep doin this I understand

If I lose myself then I lose my fam

Wanna get better, know I can

Trynna love myself

But don't know who I am

I feel disconnected, so far away

My minds running, twisting

It feels so outta place

I've been living off this bottle

My life feels full throttle

So disconnected

I feel so outta place

Im gone

Disconnected

This headache is getting worse by the second

Deflecting these negative thoughts

I'm protecting my essence

I step in the session

To vent with these messages I'm sending

To people I ain't even met

I never learned to love anybody

Let alone me

cs a young kid I was lonely

But I like that

Let me write that

In my notepad

You don't know me

So I'm pouring this liquor inside my apartment

Record it then quit it like this ** is garbage

I can do better than that

**, I can do better than that

I've never connected with anybody

On a real level

Like a **ing puppet

Call me Geppetto

Yeah I'm hollow inside like an old vessel

But I'm trying to change

I won't settle anymore

cll this pain from the memories

cll the scars hidden underneath

They saying I should be my best self

But I don't know if I could ever be

I feel disconnected, so far away

My minds running, twisting

It feels so outta place

I've been living off this bottle

My life feels full throttle

So disconnected

I feel so outta place

Im gone