Awakening

sitting in clouds of air

feeling like no one's there

holding my head to the sky and pain

swinging the smoke around

crossed lead and heaven bound

constantly suffering and praying in vain

deep in the woods i try to overcome and deny

all that i learned was to deceive and hide

knowing that i am why it's separate and different

am i afraid of what i find inside

oh how foolish i have been to believe this was a dream

that this beauty wasn't real

because suddenly i see

there is no escaping

i must face myself to be truly free

deep in his perfect eyes

i felt my spirit twice

but even katama couldn't tell me how

how can you reach my soul

how can you make me whole

how can you teach me what i already know

suddenly i'm awake

i see the path to take

no longer running i will not hide

staying the same or just lead to my pain

i must seem to let go of the spiritual pride

so if i must be alone

there will be no going home

no more praying on my knees

because the secret is in sight

looking after my own eyes

i can see the wood beyond the trees

i don't see

but i am so alone

stranded without a home

i belong nowhere i belong to no one

i am reborn today

this is the only way

no time to doubt i must keep moving on