Selfish

Closer pushing you further

What if I'm selfish

You living on different pages what if

Fight what if my fear of doing it wrongs

The reason I haven't been doing it right

What if I'm selfish

What if the kids just wanna be kids

Who don't wanna live in

And out of the news and chill with

Don't even wanna be rich

And why I'm so self center that I don't even realize

Know if I'm falling in the abyss maybe it's

Yeah maybe it's dark

Maybe it's day

Maybe it's too many nights in la

Look at the house it's sorry and still

All of the feelings we hid in the hills

Maybe it's you

Maybe it's me

Maybe the media all the provoking

Gave you my heart I laid it bare

Funny you went and you poked it

What if it's better with me out the way

What if it's better with me out of like

What if it's better with me out the way

What if I'm poison what if I'm cancer

What if I'm dangerous and I'm wild

Look in my eyes and seeing a child

What if he's broken what if he's scared

What if he's ostracized and vilified

See peace is just an illusion

Ain't got a home I live in confusion

What if I'm selfish

Forever forever forever

I manage the symptoms forever

You can love how you want

I know to give is no love

Can you settle for second and let

Go of your idea of heaven

I know it's a lot

But it might be all that I've got

I wanna throw myself in

Snap off the mask

On a clown that sings and a love that lasts

I wanna skate away

Go with you to the parish

I wanna give you my life

Or at least something to cherish

But what if I'm selfish

I've done a lot of things I regret like an ounce

And I'll split on the text

Don't know why but I still buy gifts for my ex

Watching her stories to see if she checks I'm a mess

I don't know if my head's in the game

She told me don't mention her name

I'm suggesting the same

I'ma get through the pain

Wanna see the sunshine

Gotta get through the rain

Bag full of trauma I left on the train

I'm ashamed for the days that I said that I changed

I'm a cheap sat in a therapist's chair

Crying like a baby in the middle of a holly street

Like I'm fighting a sickness that I can't beat

I'm this low and then I go mad

Reflection telling me I'm just like my dad

And this white woman telling me it ain't so bad

She cut me off like sorry david

We don't have any more time

The appointment 'til four and it's three fifty five

Bruh I feel like she wouldn't even care if I died

Man I tried all this

Therapy ** man I tried all this therapy **

Bruh I know wouldn't even say I'm depressed

But I'm low in the grove like casino and edgeway road

I've got too many sense to atone

And a voice in my head like at this point

Like at this point where you should've been

To build you a lifeline

Look around you then you feel you behind like

Look around you then you feel you behind like

Look around you then you feel like like

What if I never find love

Don't know if it's scarier

The thought of us two together or being alone

I'm so used to being alone

What if I'm somebody nobody wants

What if I'm damaged

Or what if I waited too long and I'm older me

What if I'm colder me

What if I cut off the hand that I hold on me

What if I'm rapidly spiraling tired and jaded

Or what if I'm faded

Or what if anxiety's growing inside me

That I might have left all my blessings behind me

Or what if I'm scared as I touched twenty

滚动歌词&翻译贡献者：困困鱼(音乐人认证)