In The Cold

I made a home here in unsteady things

It was hard to think that I could ever leave

So I gave my breath each time she couldn't breathe on her own

I felt her scars and asked her nervously

Who was the thief that stole your certainty?

She didn't know, she lost it some time long ago

I've fought so long, it's what I do

My fists are fine, it's just my soul's a little bruised

But I'll stay on my feet until I lose

But I never learn to lose

It's hard to know me

At least you tried

It's hard to love in the cold

And it's gotten so cold outside

My younger years went by so urgently

And left me grief that I'm still servicing

If good times change, why do the bad days stick around?

She said, I'll just keep going to be kind

To that same little girl who wondered why her parents cried

Cause she grew up and learned to lie like them

I've tried to lie to you

But boy you listen to me with your eyes as well

And it's hard to see me

At least you tried

It's hard to love in the cold

And it's gotten so cold outside

Farewell my uncle

And farewell his son

Farewell the pieces

Cause they're all I was

Will you stay with me

As I turn to dust?

When you tell their story

Tell them I was loved

So now you see me

For the first time

It's hard to love in the cold

But boy, it's time I tried