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为了和自己的暗恋对象约会,汉娜竟向自己的弃约男友说出了自己深藏多年的秘密。 i was raped it happened in high school i was drugged at a party that's why i don't like drinking in public oh shit no no see! 最近这部北美校园剧校园之外简直杀疯了!剧集上线首十二天, 拿下全球三千六百万独立观众,直接冲进 primevideo 原创剧集首播季历史前三,仅次于指环王和辐射两大顶级 ip, 妥妥的年度黑马。而今天要讲的第四集,更是被无数观众票选为全季最佳的一集。 汉娜终于收到暗恋男神梦寐以求的约会邀请,本来是值得高兴的一件事,可他还是退缩了,高中时期的阴影让他无法突破男女之间的那道安全线。 为了不让自己好不容易等来的爱情泡汤,汉娜做出了一个让所有观众都为之心碎的决定。她找到了自己最信任的朋友,也就是她的契约男友加勒特,帮助自己做脱敏练习,但要让别人帮忙,就必须先撕开自己血淋淋的伤疤。 i was raped wow, there's really no way to make that seem less heavy than it is it happened in high school i was drunk at a party that's why i don't like drinking in public oh shit no no see! 虽然时间缓解了憨娜的部分痛苦,但那场挥之不去的创伤还是给他留下了难以自愈的心理阴影。 not even ellie just you even though i firmly put this behind me i still can't seem to you know orgasm with a guy lean on my own sure fine fireworks, but yeah not with someone else okay, i'll do it really you will of course you're my friend and you need me tonight it is。 佳乐特虽然答应了,但真正面对又是另一回事,于是他只能硬着头皮偷偷跑到健身房向自己的好兄弟迪恩求助。这段兄弟间的对话,我愿称之为全剧三观最正的高光时刻,每一句台词都在疯狂上分。 is there something going on with hannah no uh not hannah someone else she wants me to do this this thing do all the things bro, it's just it's kind of a big thing it's really important to her she's like trusting me jesus hannah a virgin what no dude don't don't don't don't make this weird this doesn't leave the wait room we're not actually having this conversation it's just that i really want it to be good d n。 的 一句话更是直接戳中了这集的内核, trust that's it she's just gotta feel completely safe like completely relaxed but consent is key and she can't consent if she doesn't feel safe, so you just just gonna figure out whatever makes this specific girl who is not hannah? 可加勒特根本不在乎自己会不会做,他只怕搞砸了,辜负了这份沉甸甸的信任。 与此同时,憨娜正全力备战音乐比赛,他带着贾斯汀创作的曲目去见老师。老师很快就点破了问题所在,老师说他这首歌技术无可挑剔,但最核心的问题是里面找不到半分憨娜自己的影子。 do you have a favorite song something you love to listen to when you're sad or bored at my middle school bus stop made me feel so complicated in punk rock exactly how it made you feel you see people think that pop music is shallow, but it lives deep inside us it creates memories it etches them into our bones。 真正能打动人的流行乐从来不浅薄,能装下自己的记忆和情绪,才是歌里的魂。当时的汉娜还没完全听懂这句话,直到晚上,她如约走进了加勒特的房间。为了这次所谓的练习,汉娜特意穿了一条完全不符合她风格的裙子, 整个人从头到脚都写满了紧绷和不自在。如果是一般的青春剧,男主这时候肯定顺势夸一句,然后开始推进。但加勒特没有,他一眼就看穿了汉娜的不自在,没说半句漂亮话,而是自然地递给他一件宽大舒服的衣服让他换上。而在汉娜换衣服的时候,加勒特特意把身子转了过去。 you don't need to turn around you're about to see me naked yeah, but not until you want me to。 哪怕汉娜说不用刻意这样,他也始终没有回头。什么是真正的安全感?安全感不是嘴上喊口号说别怕,而是像加勒特这样,在每一个微小的边界里 都把选择权完完全全的交还给对方。为了缓和尴尬气氛,加勒特提议让汉娜选一首歌,结果汉娜选了一首极其不符合加勒特猛男形象的复古老歌。 为了逗汉娜开心,加勒特索性破罐子破摔,直接随着音乐在房间里滑稽的跳了起来。正是这份不刻意的傻气,一点点卸掉了汉娜身上的防备,她终于笑出声,肩膀也慢慢放松下来。 就在气氛慢慢升温,两人越靠越近的时候,汉娜突然僵住了。那种熟悉的窒息感再次袭来,她的应激反应发作了。这不是她不愿意,更不是她不信任眼前这个男孩,而是她那句受过伤的身体在尖叫着抗拒。汉娜彻底崩溃了,她低下了头。 they what if i'm broken you're not broken well, you just don't trust me enough to fully let go and that's okay no, but i do trust you i wouldn't i wouldn't be here if i did, but nothing is more vulnerable than sex so if you're not there yet that sounds completely normal。 加勒特完美避开了所有自以为是的错误答案,他没有去逼迫他克服,也没有急躁的催促, 只是用最平静的语气告诉汉娜,你可以停下,你可以慢慢来,你随时拥有退缩的权利。而正是这种不把退缩当成扫性的包容,让汉娜第一次真正放松了下来。这场戏最动人的地方根本不在于尺度, 而在于汉娜终于没有像过去那样逃走,他第一次在一个男孩面前真真正正的留了下来。在加勒特的耐心陪伴下,汉娜终于突破了心理障碍,找回了那个未受惊吓前无所畏惧的自己。 事后两人坐在一起闲聊,汉娜随口问起为什么这首老歌会在他的常听歌单里,加勒特这才说起自己的母亲。小时候只要父亲情绪变得紧绷,母亲就会让他从唱片里挑一张来放。所以那首歌对他来说从来不只是旋律好听, 代表着一种从压抑环境里逃出去的勇气。两颗心就在这种不经意的互相坦诚中靠的越来越近。气氛正软下来的时候,加勒特手机屏幕亮了。前暧昧对象发来的消息,语气亲昵,一眼就能看透关系。就这一眼,汉娜瞬间清醒。他立刻起身整理衣服, 用一句谢谢你的帮忙,把刚才所有的心动和柔软全都重新封回了交易的壳子里。很快,学校举办的醉酒莎士比亚即兴演出把四个人拽进了同一场修罗场。哈纳、贾斯汀、加勒特,还有他的前暧昧对象肯德尔全被抽中上台演戏。台上演的是莎士比亚的爱恨情仇,台下藏的全是没说出口的真心。 更错人的是肯德尔的即兴台词,他顺着剧情打去两人的关系,汉娜几乎是下意识就开口撇清。 everyone knows the girl who locked down garrett graham, no, no i didn't lock him i mean we're not locked he is free to unlock anyone he wants。 话音落下,加勒特的脸瞬间沉了下去。他难过的从来不是别人的眼光,是他急着划清界限的样子,好像那些温柔的夜晚从来都没存在过。 中场休息时,加勒特在后台找到肯德尔,第一次认认真真为当初潦草结束关系随意对待感情的事道了歉。 kendall, about the way that i ended things i was kind of a dick don't don't apologize to me just make yourself feel better i was just gonna say you know it sucks when you like someone and they don't like you back it does if i knew just how much it sucked i probably would have done some things differently, so i'm sorry, really? 加勒特这番话哪里是在向过去道歉,他分明是在剖析现在的自己,因为在跟哈娜的相处中,他无可救药的动了心, 终于真真切切的体会到了那种爱一个人却得不到回应的刺骨之痛。演出结束后,贾斯丁终于对汉娜表白了。汉娜得到了梦寐以求的男神,他转头就去后台找加勒特,用一种极其平静却残忍到极点的语气宣布, justin said, he wants to ask me out uh congratulations that's uh yeah you did it yeah, yeah uh, so i guess this means our deal is officially over right, oh, yeah, right, yeah i mean i got you the grade and i got you the guy。 三言两语一场,各取所需的契约画上了句号,可两个人都清楚,有些东西早就变了。哈纳看着加勒特失落的眼神,心里涌起了莫名的难受和酸楚,但这股酸楚 很快就在随后的派对上化作了彻底的清醒。汉娜终于和贾斯汀站在一起聊天,这是他盼了很久的时刻,可心里却半点都高兴不起来。他试着用音乐老师教他的方法去触碰贾斯汀的灵魂。 what does it make you feel? i mean jealous, i didn't ride it fast why what does it make you feel? 贾斯汀完全听不懂汉娜在说什么,他满脑子只有歌曲的技术结构和极度的功利心。这一刻,汉娜心里的滤镜碎得彻底,他曾经崇拜的音乐才子根本读不懂他歌里的心事,也看不见他藏在笑容背后的挣扎。他突然想起那天晚上加勒特说起老歌时眼里的光, uh, i guess uh makes me feel bold, bold yeah, i like to just say i like you deal with it。 加勒特的感受是那首歌里藏着喘口气的勇气。 懂和不懂从来都藏在细节里。汉娜再也待不下去,转身离开了派对。他跑到加勒特的住处,敲了很久的门都没人应,打电话也只有语音信箱。但汉娜的心里比任何时候都要清楚,那个男人此刻在哪。深夜的冰球场,空荡荡的冰面上只有加勒特一个人, 他在不知疲倦的滑行,狠狠的击球。这哪里是在练球,这分明是在发泄心里那种快要将它撕碎的失去感。就在这时,安静的场馆里音响响了起来。 这首歌正是汉娜写尽了所有情绪的原创歌曲。 一刻没有交易,没有契约,没有嘴硬和试探,两颗在彼此身上找到安全感的心,终于在这一刻坦诚相对。这一集之所以被观众票选为拳击最佳,从来不是因为三角恋的狗血拉扯。他拍透了亲密关系里最稀缺也最珍贵的东西, 是尊重,是分寸,是慢慢来的。耐心是你不用逼自己快点好起来,我也愿意等你。心动可以是见色起意, 可以是崇拜滤镜,但长久的喜欢一定是被看见,被接住,被好好放在心上。第四集的故事到这里就告一段落,汉娜和加勒特的关系才刚刚明朗,接下来还会有怎样的拉扯与考验,我们第五集不见不散。