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今天是寻常的一天,对我来说,也许也会是意义非凡的一天。带着黑眼圈和只睡了几个小时的身体,我开启了今天,醒来清醒后的第一个念头是—今天有重要的事情、拍摄。可当我拿着准备好的衣服,在镜子面前比划比划时。我突然不想穿它了,我突然忘了,我为什么要进行这场拍摄,我想传递什么? 所以我放弃了预想的任何计划,因为我发现,它始终替代不了,我穿上一件我从未穿过的衣服时,那件看似不起眼的物品,带给我的感受。 脑海里预设的完美,永远代替不了我内心最真实的感受。 对啊,我为什么要完美?这个问题就在今天我也许问了自己无数遍,我到底为什么要完美? 首先我想表达的是,我遇到的这位摄影师,绝对是一位优秀的女性,她专业、可靠、真诚,还有点小可爱。会告诉我下一秒应该进行怎样的动作最合适,会告诉我怎样的表情才“适合”当下的这一刻,等等等等… 我无比的相信她绝对是一位有着自己的想法,在我眼里绝对完整且优秀的人。 可当我听见那些“建议”时,“现在不要笑”,“给我一个轻蔑的表情”“你太可爱了有点拍不了酷酷的感觉”,“我觉得你拍…一点你会很适合你很出圈!” 我认为她说的绝对是正确的,没错,我清楚地知道自己适合什么,怎么样才能像已经取得优秀成果的人一样,靠近他们,成为和她们一样的人。这对我来说,最直接,也最简单,也最高效。 可是,我忍不住思考一个问题。那就是—我到底是什么样的? 事实上就是,我不是一个在拍视频方面有经验的人,我知道自己想要的或许是真实,是情绪,是直觉。可这些我还没有深深确定东西,瞬息万变,太容易让我因为所有人对我的“建议”,而丢掉我真正的想法。 想到这一点时,我很难过。因为,我只是想做自己,我只是想让自己享受每一个当下和每一面的自己。即使我知道,今天我的发型很糟糕,我的表情没有控制好,又或许我穿的衣服并不太适合我。可是那又怎么样呢? 我仍然想选择成为我自己。只是在这一刻,我想坚定地告诉自己,你不用发型完美,不用表情到位,也值得被记录。我坚定地告诉自己,一定是这样的。 我依然是乐观、开朗、勇敢,真实的。因为即使我知道我的不完美,也改变不了我向上的心。也许有一天,我会变得所谓的“完美”,妆容精致,表情到位,一切都是一个完美的“抖音作品”。可那又怎么样呢?我依然是我,我依然确定,不完美的我值得被记录。我依然确定,我一定要真实、热烈地活在这个世界上。我清楚地知道我会承受的痛苦,可我依然选择
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